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I'm a mother & wife in my mid 30's and my story started along time ago back in 1996. I was a statistic from the beginning. In November of 1995 I met the father of my first born & on July 29, 1996 my oldest daughter was born. I was just a junior in high school and 16 yrs old. I dropped out of high school & re-enrolled into a special school that had a daycare in it so I could continue my education. May 1997 I walked the stage in my cap & gown in the agreement that I still had to attend 4 weeks of summer school to receive my diploma. I went to 3 weeks of summer school and wasn't able to compete the last week due to complications in my abusive relationship.

After many years of battling bad relationships, abuse, a beating that caused me to miscarry, drugs, mental health complications, & custody battle I decided that it was time to make a change for the better. I logged into the internet & found a career on a 350 acre horse farm training 35 reining horses in Pennsylvania. I didn't have a dollar to my name or know anyone there at at all, but I did know that if I stayed where I was i would either end up dead, or in prison. So, I took a chance!! I signed temporary custody of my daughter to my parents & left for a better future.

My journey in Pennsylvania lasted from May 2001-January 2007. I arrived in Pa. & after 3 short months I got injured on the job & could no longer work. I job hopped until 2002 my birthday came and I went out & hung with some friends. That night was one of the worst as one of my friends attempted to rape me & when he got hurt trying he called the police. Since he was the only one with marks on his body I went to jail. Unfortunately the cop that arrived to the scene was violent & years later dismissed from the force for excessive force & violence. Needless to say that night I ended up in the hospital with a dislocated knee, foot print of cops shoe, cuts, bruises, and in a wheelchair! Shortly after my appearance at the hospital I was escorted to the local prison to be locked away until my case could be heard. I ended up wasting a little over a 1 year in prison altogether.

While I was locked away it was important for me to do something better for myself & my kids instead of wasting my days just sitting doing nothing. So, with that I decided to get my GED. So while I was locked up I studied for my GED & 3 days after I was released I took the exam & passed!! It was now '03'- early '04' & I was NO longer a statistic!! I had even enrolled into college for my A.S. Business Admin/Management/Marketing degree!!

While I was locked up I met my youngest daughter's father on a furlow. Shortly after my release we started dating & on May 18, 2005 we welcomed our sweet baby girl into this world. Our little girl was born during my maternity leave from college. I was working at Subway, waitressing at a local diner & a college student all while being pregnant. Shortly after graduation I got work & then approx after 6 months with the company they offered to cover my U-Haul to relocate to where my kids lived in Florida (where I was from).

 So January 2007 I find myself living back in Florida. My youngest daughter's father was to follow in May, but due to personal problems things just didn't work out the way planned. The career I moved down here for was in the real estate industry & do I really need to say more? Florida real estate market by no means was gentle to me. I went from having a small place & a '98' Cavalier to having a beautiful home in the country, '98' Cavalier &  a BRAND new '08' Suzuki. I lost it ALL!

I was in a car accident that almost took my life & that was the beginning of hitting rock bottom for me, or so I thought. Suzuki got repossessed, Cavalier wrecked, had to send my youngest daughter to stay with my parents as I wasn't sure where I would be tomorrow as I was facing losing my home too. I needed to get away again to make a change, so I moved to Orlando. I found out that the "friends" I thought I had in Orlando were far from that to say the least.

By now it is summer 2008 & I'm in Orlando. I was staying with some room mates & that's when I met my now husband. He came across the street to see if I was some girl named Nikki from Arkansas. Nope, not me... About a month later we bumped into each other again & this time things were different. We hung out, became friends, and in October 2008 I needed to move so i moved in with my husband as a temporary thing as room mates for a month or two. Since that day in October we have never been apart. October 10, 2009 my husband asked me to marry him & on December 17, 2011 we committed ourselves to one another "Till Death Do Us Part".

Shortly after we said our views I had real bad joint pain & was getting symptoms that made me believe that I was having problems with my thyroid or I was getting fibromyalgia. On my oldest sisters birthday March 15, I went to the hospital with pains & bleeding to see if I was having a problem with my cysts I have on my ovaries. Come to find out, we were 12 weeks pregnant!! Apparently, on February 1st (My 32nd B-day) our baby was conceived.

Now to the reason for this online blog to document our story & my journey not only for me, but for the others like us... Also for my girls to know the truth not only about their questions like why, how & for them to know their brother. You see I started this journey w/CDH when Silas was diagnosed at 20 weeks gestation.  My story began to be documented HERE. I went to write on my blog yesterday & that is when I noticed that it was high-jacked & someone changed my layout. I couldn't figure out how to fix it after hours of trying today, so I'm just linking it so you can follow the story from then till now.

This is MY Story!! A story of many trials & triumphs, but NOT the end! If I can conquer all I have so can you!!  ~Psalm 55:22